Thread:Fourdauntlesscakes24/@comment-25160380-20140711052841

My name is Gemma Tate that's my full name but everyone just calls me Gemma. I was born into a family of nine grandchildren. I've never really been that kind of person that was always up to making friends. I was quiet and never talked to many people. I'm the third youngest in my family and my family really pays attention to the oldest and the youngest. I'm nothing, I'm  not important to the family. I read and I write and I make most friends online because it's easier for me to be someone who I want to be. My cousin and I are always hanging out but, for me I wish I didn't have to. My older cousins have always insulted me one time one of them told everyone that I would most likely be a lesbian and I cried. There's nothing wrong with being a lesbian, in my view, but it hurt because everyone agreed. I have always been a little emotionally unstable, I cried all the time and always thought people were making fun of me. I always heard voices in my head, they said stuff to me that was terrible. I have spent my whole life thinking I'm not good enough, I'm not funny, I'm nothing. Suicide was never an option to me, I always thought my life isn't bad enough for that and so many people have it worse. Well, my cousin just didn't want me to be happy she would try and make me ditch my friends and when I didn't lie to my parents and say I ditched her, she called me stupid in front of them and bossed me around to make it look like I'm the boss. I told her my deepest secrets and she makes fun of them. Well guess what! I'M DONE! I CAN'T SPEND MY LIFE WISHING I WAS DEAD THAN BE IN THAT FAMILY I want to change. I can't be that person that gets pushed around. I'm going to stand up to them. Here's my problem, when I get frustrated I cry and I don't want them to think I'm still that person.  