User blog:LittleIrish*/IDK What to do

Guys.. okay.. so some of you might understand this blog, or some may not, but... I just need to rant, idgaf if this brings whatever it brings, i just need to do it...

I miss her...

I miss her so damn much like ive never missed anything in my whole life, I just miss her too much, I love her too, I love her more than anything in life with no joke. I feel extremely lost and disoriented,  im going fucking mental by my own, imagine that the someone you love the most and talk to every single fucking day just randomly disappears?!

I can't stop crying, it's been 5 days!!!!! ALMOST A DAMNED WEEK, ALMOST A WEEK!!!!!!!!! ive never- we never... we never really have been this time span without speaking, its driving me crazy, i need her so much, she makes my world happy and i hoefully made hers happy at least once

SHE'S MY FUCKING EVERYTHING

ive prayed on my knees around more than 10 times

I JUST NEED TO KNOW SHE'S OK

and why she's hurting me this way, I just need to know she's safe and ok. thats all i need.

im so worried and lost and lonely.

i can do whatever right at this point for her because i damn need her and miss her so much

Ik im probably overreacting as some say, and that i can like move on and get over it but i just cant

i need her too much to be ok

i cant stop crying and harming myself because im just like nervous something happened

ik this is all my fault in some way nd god please forgive everything ive done

oh my god my life is like useless and worthless without her and i just need to know shes okay

and to have her back

sorry to spam with this blog omg so sorry i just need to this