User blog comment:SinnerOfRandomness/May Vent Blog/@comment-4816103-20140508005203

I hate how often I end up feeling like I'm only good for screwing things up.

I mean, this usually comes to mind when I lose/break/forget something very important and/or expensive, because I'm not joking here, it happens way too damn often. And then I get really emotional about it, which makes me feel like even more of an idiot.

It's just... It just always happens. Whenever I make a promise that I won't forget/lose/break something, one of those things always happens.

And now it just makes me start wondering, like, what's wrong with me? And I know these are just mistakes, I shouldn't let mistakes get to me like this, but I can't help it because I'm always the one to make these mistakes. Not my friends, not my sister, me. And it scares me.

Also, I hate that this bout of self-doubt came from me losing my calculator.

Doesn't sound like a big deal? It's $97, and the only calculator that will allow me to pass this math unit (because everything we do this unit is on our calculators) and I've only had it for a ''week. ''I'm not getting better at these things, I'm getting much worse.